Let Go and Let God is a song and a cliché within the church. Not that that saying has no truth, but it is often used so haphazardly that the full weight of the words is missed.
I long for more children. An itch has been scratched since having Baby Grace but it still feels that my family is not yet complete. I long for the boy my husband can father in the home; a boy from my womb. While we have been trying, I have not yet felt the desperation I had while waiting for Baby Grace to come. As Baby Grace continues to grow and out grow, I have not parted with a thing. I have been, once again, hoarding but calling it wisdom. Better to store and wait for another child than to give away and have to repurchase right? No. Saving is wisdom. Hoarding is folly. Hoarding/Storing takes on the mindset that if we give it away, we could never again regain it. God provided the first time and He can and will provide again. Let go and let God.
During today’s sermon, God impressed upon me that I was hoarding his blessings. He had to remind me that He provided for Baby Grace and He will provide for the next baby, whenever that happens. I had to release my coveted Puj Baby Tub, stretchy car seat canopy, sneak-a-peak car seat cover, and nursing cover. My bargain bought breast pump, Close & Secure Portable Infant Sleeper, and my numerous baby wearing gear, all I released. I released EVERYTHING over and over and over again until it was complete and real and not just lip service.
God provided before. He will provide again. Why? Because He told me to let go. I didn’t decide to just let go and hope he’ll catch me because I desire for new. No. He told me to let go so I am. I know He will provide yet again because He did for Jazmine and Baby Grace. I KNOW He will do it for whenever the next baby comes. By the time you read this, I will have already made a call to see if a new mom needs anything I have and I will have sent a text asking another mom to come view my wares and to take whatever she needs. Whatever is left will be posted on my MOPS group Facebook page. Whatever is left after that will be consigned at the next local Tot Swap for $1-$3. I look forward to being a conduit for God’s blessings.