As Jazmine eagerly awaits her body changes, Baby Grace shows then shies away from potty independence. It is quite the spectrum we have here in the Lee household. On one hand, we are watching our flower blossom. On the other hand, our sweet cherub is turning into quite the tyrant.
As a mom who enjoys like-mindedness with other moms, it is hard to straddle this spectrum. I am fully immersed in each but not exclusive to either. I can speak with some moms and be right in the boat with them in puberty discussions. Other moms, our potty training woes cause us to click. The tricky part is when I need to leave one conversation to tend to the part of motherhood that I have but they don’t. Discussing the necessity of undergarments for budding girls is cut short because I need to discipline the toddler who thought it was a great idea to remove things from shelves. Exchanging funny toddler stories is cut short because my big kid has another activity to get to.
I am in a unique position not because it is exclusive to me but because in my circles, I am the white tiger in the room. I don’t quite fit. I used to struggle hugely in this area. When it was only Jazmine and I was waist-deep in step-motherhood, I was still a white tiger. I hated not feeling fully apart of the mommy tribe because I had one child and not multiple to juggle on top of having blended family uniqueness. That was a hard time. Praise God I learned a few things from that experience.
I am better able to accept my motherhood duality now. I can pass easily from puberty, to potty training, to being a step-mom to teenagers and back again seamlessly because it is ALL my life. Each unique stage of life applies to me simultaneously. I wear that fact as a crown. In my bag, I keep snacks for the tyrant and spelling words for the blossoming one. On any given day, we could have teenage boys or our adult daughter over. It is my life and I am grateful to live it.