Today’s Sabbath was like most others. We went to church, came home, ate dinner, and took a nap. We are house hunting and walked through a house early evening today. After that, we came back home, I got into my pajamas and relaxed in the bed.
The first nap I took was needed. The last few days have been pretty packed and I needed the rest. The second time I laid across the bed, I was not sleepy. I wasn’t even tired really. I just wanted to lay down so I did. I thought about that for a minute; laying down just because I could. I didn’t feel guilty because today is a rest day for all of us in the house so it wasn’t like I was chillin’ and everyone else was busy with something. I didn’t try to come up with an excuse as to why I needed to justify this needless rest. I just decided to enjoy this pregnancy.
We have waited and endured the wait to conceive. Now that it is finally here, I WILL enjoy it. There is plenty to do and my to-do list this week is not short but I will take time to smell the roses. I will take pregnancy time outs even when I don’t really need them. I will take them because I can. I will take them because this time is special and precious and I will not miss out on it. I am no longer trying to keep up with fit-mom whose exercise habits haven’t changed much since becoming pregnant. I am no longer trying to keep up with active on-the-go mom whose baby bump is an accessory that has to conform to her life. I tried to keep up with those ladies. I wanted to be them. I wanted that to be my story but it is not.
Instead, I am going to pave my own way. At times, I may look like fit-mom. At other times, I may look like active on-the-go-mom. Now days, I may resemble bon-bon-eating-expectant-mom and, although I am okay with that label, that’s not really me either.
I am a grateful mom. I am a thankful mom. I am a mother who knows that pregnancy is not a guarantee available to you whenever you get the notion. I am a mother who will be more appreciative of the moments and not allow the pressures of the world for women/mothers to be “more than” to dictate my steps because I know Someone who is more than enough.