Last week was hard. Hard doesn’t even begin to describe the anguish of thought, feelings of hopelessness and defeat that I experienced. But praise God! Trouble don’t last always.
After much prayer, surviving off of God’s word (which lead to a new Bible Study and a new devotional), and acceptance of His will, HE DELIVERED!
My husband said the absolute most sexiest thing a man could ever say to a woman that feeds her very essence. He said,
“I will fight for you.”
Say what?!?!?! Those five words opened a dam of affection that had been stopped. Those five words were the release from being in a bad head space, hopelessness, and defeat. He followed up those words by saying he loved me and that he would die for me. I know those words are true but those first five words mean so much more than the rest of his declaration to me.
I could only smile but I did not simply smile. I smiled hard. His words more than just touched me. They fed me. I smiled outwardly but inwardly, I was beaming from ear to ear. My eyes even smiled! I read a lot of books and have read the expression that someone’s eyes smiled although their mouth never moved. Now I understand. My mouth smiled, but more importantly, my eyes smiled.
I keep replaying that scene of my husband and I in my head and continue to smile. Not only did he say he would fight for me, he has been backing up ever since. Full speed ahead.