Sarah gets a bad rep.
She is often called stupid.
I have never heard of her portrayed in a good light when attending woman’s conferences. We get hung up on her telling her husband to sleep with another woman, and don’t dig in any deeper to understanding why she made that choice.
I know how Sarah felt.
Having tried to conceive for over a year since losing our last child in utero, desperation has sent out several invitations for me to search for other methods of speeding things up. If Sarah’s choice was made today, the masses would accept it. She wouldn’t tell her husband to sleep with another woman but she would go get some donor sperm and be on her merry little way. Let us not judge Sarah too harshly.
I feel barren. Sarah felt barren. Yes, she was barren but her barrenness was lifted once God declared that she would conceive and bring forth a child. It was 25 years before the promise was fulfilled but she stopped being barren once the word went out that she would conceive.
I feel hopeless. Sarah felt hopeless. Why else would she offer up another woman to her husband of many years? Hopelessness can drive you to places you never thought you would find yourself . I want so badly for my husband to have a son to raise in his own home, full-time, without hinderance. I want it to happen now. I thought it would have happened by now. Something to learn from Sarah is that we can’t be led by our yearning. We have to walk by faith even if it feels like this particular leg of the faith walk has us walking over broken glass.