It’s Not My Husband. It’s Us

To piggyback on my previous post, there is another reason why I explained my nuclear family dynamic to every soon-to-be-acquaintance I met.  It’s because I was a coward.

I wanted to clearly identify that it was not me who brought children into our marriage.  It was him.  I wanted it to be known without having to explicitly say it that those were his children, not mine.  I wanted to get sympathy from the listener; to understand why I didn’t know all of the answers a “real” Mommy would know. I wanted to create distance between me and my big kids but at the same time simulate a closeness between us with that statement in my family; a separate but equal if you will.

Of course, that is impossible.  If you want to create a closeness, you do not add distance.  The reverse is also true.  All of that was just a cover for the truth.  To say blended to me means that I too brought something in to this and that is a distinction I wanted to be made very clear was not the case.

No more.  I will not act cowardly.  I will not verbally defer my big kids to my husband with my words or my tone again.  I will no longer make a distinction.  If clarification ever needs to be made, it will be spoken but not as a “it’s him” tone but rather in, “this is us” tone.  We are the Lee family.

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