Awesomeness. If it is not a word, then it is now.
God is awesome! Sometimes you have to move in order to see all of His awesomeness. What do I mean by move? Change. That is how you move.
My prayer life sucks. Having a regular prayer time with the Lord has never come easy for me. I’ve set up schedules and tried different ways to begin having a prayer life but nothing has stuck. I was thinking about this problem area yesterday and trying, yet again, to think of a way I could get it going.
Within the last month, I started having my quite time, when I just read God’s Word, during Jazmine’s nap time. I used to read before I went to bed after I put Jazmine down for the night. I was getting too tired to finish my reading and when I did finish, I would read it just so I could check it off my to-do list. I wasn’t absorbing His word. I was just reading as a task. Once I started reading during her nap time, my quite time has returned to being something that I look forward.
With that recent change in mind, I started looking for ways to put prayer in my life and make it a priority. Yesterday, I realized that praying first thing in the morning would be best. Stealing away with God in prayer before the baby wakes up or I get the itch to check Facebook, is a great way to start the day but it doesn’t come without challenges. First, waking up to pray. Typically I wake up around 6AM or so because nature calls but I have worked very hard to train myself to handle nature and then go back to sleep without skipping a beat. Now, I have to tell myself to stay awake, tip toe out of the room so not to wake up Jazmine, and get downstairs to pray. This morning, I tried to pray in the bed. After I caught myself saying “Dear Lord, thank you for this day” for the fourth time, I had to accept that praying in the bed is not cutting it.
I went downstairs to pray. I was so sleepy that even sitting upright in a chair, I was still stumbling over phrases and apologizing to the Lord over and over for not being able to get it together. I finally said “Jesus, it’s a good thing you know my heart and that I know my motives are right before you because my execution is mess”. But, I was there, in a designated spot to talk to God and listen for Him. It wasn’t pretty, but I showed up. Hallelujah! Now, prayerfully, I can do it again tomorrow.